Cynthia

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for cynthia marie biscotti
september 16, 1991 - may 28, 2014
i love you

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released September 16, 2016

produced by pascal stevenson at seahorse sound studios in downtown los angeles, california
special thanks to avi zahner isenberg

douglas james sweeney -- guitar/vocals
mike mcdowell -- bass
greg shilton -- drums

additional:
miles wintner -- guitar on "receiving better"
tabor engineered/composed -- strings on "illusions of virgo"
ami radunskaya and ezra buchla -- cello and viola on "illusions of virgo"

lotus sutra performed by cynthia biscotti

album art -- painting by cynthia biscotti

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Track Name: Bad Painter
when you’re walking on wide streets honey you belong to now
float above this city in a painting of a cloud
put your head upon my fingers everybody’s there
bad painters are only the ones who make you cut your hair

you keep making the same mistakes you did with me when i was dead
bad painters always are worth something to me alive

violet and youthful you were freaking out your mind
before you realize that you'd leave it all behind
for something green and simple
chagall would be your only friend
bad painters are only the ones who realize they're dead

you keep making the same mistakes you did with me when i was dead
bad painters always are worth something to me alive
Track Name: Plastic Astral
before you sleep you go to bed
and you count the teeth inside your head
and you throw to the wall what's in your veins
and you want to kill what's in your brain

in your anxiety hole
before you glow to the door
plastic globe you can call
and the room is just cold

plastic astral girlfriend reaching out toward the end
dinosaurs would touch your spin
and you realize you’re still alive
but you know that i would not sail
into the mouth of a comet’s tail
and you find your feet in vomit now
and you end it all inside your cloud
but the blood is drippin in the hall
and your eyes are melting in your skull
and your mom is screaming out your name
but you want it all just to be the same

in your anxiety hole
before you glow to the door
plastic globe you can call
and the room is just cold

go unto me what your asking of me
dinosaur wings where you want them to be
Track Name: Hawthorne Moon
the moon is out again the city's got no friends
wash your hands of everything and start again
but now i’m crying in my car about the tattoos on your arm
i realize now i'll never see them again

because the hawthorne moon is gonna be here soon
and i still love you

reverse my infancy then tear it out of me
the street light’s on i’m coming home alone again
but now the water’s turning brown asleep in my hometown
a tragic life is coming to a tragic end

but the hawthorne moon is gonna be here soon
and i still love you

when you ask me if i'll leave it
i won't promise anything
20 years i spent in this room
you and i won't be the same now that you have gone away

the moon is out again you'll make some better friends
you won't be the only lonely one again
discordant empathy don't ask me anything
the moon will crash into my parents house today

but the hawthorne moon is gonna be here soon
and i still love you
Track Name: The Sleep
i wouldn't eat and i wouldn't go to sleep
you are projecting all of the stars for me
water's flowing all around me convince myself that you're just sleeping
under the rusty eye of where the people sleep
you are the nothing that i wouldn't want to be
desert story a picture for me death is kicking in my memory

i still can't believe that you’re gone
i still can't believe that you’re gone
i still can't believe that you’re gone

when you are laughing death is gonna come for you
green little hands will reach across my bed for you
there's nothing alive in this house comets crash into my room now
aliens are coming wake up in a golden dream
between the edges of your own insanity
where you’re going i won't follow skin is turning dark and hollow

i still can't believe that you’re gone
i still can't believe that you’re gone
i still can't believe that you’re gone

the way you are i couldn't stop you
i couldn't be there
cause you lied

you came into me
but i couldn't set you free
you opened the door

but now water's flowing all around me convince myself that you're just sleeping
projecting the star map you know what you've gotta do
burn down the house and get yourself up on the roof
throw yourself into the sky now lock yourself inside your room now
Track Name: Receiving Better
days were split wide open
when you were in my life

we're receiving better
since you placed us in sunlight

o! to be nothing
standing next to a green and orange sky
in your mind
you’re alright in sunlight
Track Name: Not Golden
don't go away
when you’re asking for the pain
if you can't hold it
you’re not golden like me

everyone will say
that there's darkness in your brain
but you’re the ocean
and its unspoken to me

i'll go insane when you are asking around
words are spinning in my brain
but you’re not dead

Don’t go away
The skeletons will pray
But you don’t know them
You don’t owe them anything

i’ve got nothing to say
because i know you’re going away
and you’re not golden
you’re not golden like me
Track Name: Liquid Sister
o! it’s just a momentary face
a liquid sister takes your place
she couldn't smile from ear to ear
when i kiss her you might say
when you ask for me
in your lonely jealousy
words are rotting in my veins
when i see them you might say

it’s just a mortuary (in your mind)
in interplanetary (space & time)
death is floating towards me (in your eyes)
another dopeless hope fiend (space & time)

o! you wanna go away today
some heroin might be okay
glowing like silver in the rain
when i find you you would say
"it's just hard for me
i’m just a lonely girl out here
let’s go to the desert for a day
let’s get out of LA" i might say

it’s just a mortuary (in your mind)
in interplanetary (space & time)
death is floating towards me (in your eyes)
another dopeless hope fiend (space & time)
Track Name: Uncanny Valley
won't miss anything, evil’s got its ways
paint it on your brain when it’s all coming back to me
nothing’s really changed uncanny valley
when you’re going away but you’re not coming back again

save it all
life is very dull
when you’re gonna die you don't know

laughing thru your teeth, secrets said to me
mannequins could sing and it’s all coming back to me
bodies turn to stone the living plastic rose
paying for your sins with ten years of loneliness

save it all
life is very dull
when you’re gonna die you don't know

i won't really change nothing looks the same
floodlights on the moon and you all are dying too soon
i won't really be the uncanny you see
one skeletal hand touching another even colder hand

save it all
life is very dull
when you’re gonna die you don't know
Track Name: Cynthia
cynthia now has become the sunset
with every moment now she's surely gone away
rejoining everything in silence
become a part of everything that's ever been

cynthia cynthia cynthia (become a color never seen)
cynthia cynthia cynthia (with every hour that i breathe)

now when you cry you'll be a raindrop
screaming from heaven where your back is turned to me
forever lost among the beauty
living within me but forever out of reach

cynthia cynthia cynthia (become the sacred opal dream)
cynthia cynthia cynthia (bring all the colors back to me)

coming back to me with wings now
breathe your colors into me
illuminate the world with your love
become your final masterpiece

i'll wake them up so that can see you
visionary angels thrown into the sea
become the moon in every country
bring all the planets down to worship at your feet

cynthia cynthia cynthia
cynthia cynthia cynthia
cynthia cynthia cynthia
cynthia cynthia cynthia
cynthia cynthia cynthia
Track Name: Sacred View
going away now everything's said
everyone knows that your golden hair
won't talk to me later
won't talk to me at all
radiate through me down your yellow halls

but o! sacred view
everything looks good in your room
you ask me why i’m still alive
you ask me with pearls in your eyes
while you look to the sky

cover the mirrors to look at yourself
there’s beautiful things you can't see 'cause you’re so
vibrating with reasons to kill all the rest
i couldn't hold you close to my chest

but o! sacred view
everything looks good in your room
you ask me why i’m still alive
you ask me with pearls in your eyes
while you look to the sky

going away now your mouth is sand
in the vegetable kingdom before it happened
don't talk to me later
don't to me at all
nobody knows that you’re gonna fall

but o! sacred view
everything looks good in your room
you ask me why i’m still alive
you ask me with pearls in your eyes
while you look to the sky
Track Name: Illusions of Virgo
see it there golden hair
black lines on your eyes
there's no signs of life
you and i won't breathe
needles on your wings

i held you in our room
hospital bed now
tubes inside your mouth
flowers in your brain
all wilt in the rain

can't believe that you'd leave
in a tomb of skin
dying from within
body grown so cold
air conditioning soul

opal dreams turned to screams
praying for more time
halo's grown too tight
taken out too soon
come back to our room without you

it's okay to feel alone
pain won't come unless you’re home
i hope you are happy there
feel you now within the air

see it there golden hair
never thought you'd die
swirling painted sky
sun won't shine so bright
through the devil’s eyes

serpents sing of their wings
from an angel now
taken off the ground
laying on our bed
silence in your head

i love you! i don't know where you are
but now i feel you there
every night i'll sleep alone
dreaming of you coming home


(lotus sutra performed by cynthia biscotti)